A few days ago, after we put up our Short and Sweet interview with Karen Graffeo, I looked over the D blog Week topics to see if any of them “spoke” to me. The first was right up my ally – I Can. But I didn’t think I would have much to say about today’s topic until I read Molly’s blog about not discussing or posting her A1c results.
The reason I didn’t think I would have anything to say on this topic is because one of the first decisions I made when diagnosed was that I was not going to be embarrassed about anything that has to do with diabetes. Don’t get me wrong, I’m embarrassed of plenty of things and I have many things I don’t like to discuss with others, but when it comes to diabetes I feel like there is nothing to be ashamed of, success or failure.
I made this decision after meeting people who tested and injected in private and even some who kept their disease a secret. I decided that hiding implied that I’d done something wrong.
When I started blogging on ASweetLife, I took my diabetes public. This wasn’t an easy decision for me but when I made it I knew that there could be no secrets. I couldn’t boast about my success (running marathons, eating low carb and just living well) with out sharing my failures. (I caught myself with a BG of 42 a few hours ago.) And I had to paint a full picture of my life with diabetes, and dealing with my A1c has always been big part of that.
I’ve posted my A1c many times on this blog, usually voicing my frustration and occasionally my satisfaction.
I have had results which I had a hard time sharing but doing so has always felt better than not. My A1c is far from where I would like it to be and it seems that no matter how hard I try I can’t get it down for more than a quarter (three months).
So, when it comes to diabetes I have no secrets. I work hard to stay alive. That’s something to be proud of, not to hide.