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Last week I put up an essay here<\/a> that I wrote about Mike’s type 1 diagnosis.\u00a0 I wrote the essay before I knew about my own diabetes.\u00a0 I think quite a bit about the difference between my reaction to Mike’s diagnosis and the reaction I’ve had to my own.<\/p>\n

When Mike was diagnosed I felt driven to find a cure for him.\u00a0 I wasn’t prepared to resign him to a life of diabetes.\u00a0 With my own diagnosis it’s been different.\u00a0 I haven’t been focused on finding a cure for myself–surprisingly-I’ve hardly thought about a cure.\u00a0 I’ve jumped into living a healthy diabetic life, and most of the time, I think I’ve come to terms with it. That is, afterall, the idea behind A Sweet Life.<\/p>\n

But then there are moments, despite the sweetness, when the fear sinks in.\u00a0 It happens to me often in the middle of the night, while I’m nursing my baby, Adam.\u00a0 My body feels strong and useful while I feed Adam.\u00a0 It feels like it is doing exactly what it was meant to do.\u00a0 I try to stay focused on that, and on the wonder in my arms, but I find myself asking how I can be doing so much right, while so much is going wrong with me.\u00a0 And\u00a0 panic has a way of surfacing in the dark…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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