I’m having an anxiety attack.\u00a0 I’ve been having one for days and – to be honest – it’s a lot harder to deal with than diabetes.\u00a0 With diabetes there are many frustrations, but in a certain way, it’s a disease that suits me (if there is such a thing!).\u00a0 I have obsessive-compulsive tendencies which make me really good about monitoring my blood sugar.\u00a0 I like being in control.\u00a0 I grew up keeping kosher so I’ve always known about dietary restrictions.\u00a0 In short, I have ways of coping with diabetes.\u00a0 I cannot, however, cope with anxiety.\u00a0 It undoes me in every way, I get flustered, I can’t concentrate, and I lose things.\u00a0 A few weeks ago, for example, when Mike and I almost put our apartment up for sale, I lost my wedding ring.\u00a0 Now, after receiving some scary blood test results (not diabetes-related) I’ve lost my glucometer.<\/p>\n
I know my body is overrun with stress hormones and I am sure it is messing up my blood sugar.\u00a0 So what a perfect time to lose a glucometer.\u00a0\u00a0 I always keep it right next to my computer or right next to the bed.\u00a0 These are both places where my cat (currently known as Douche) likes to sit.\u00a0 Douche is black.\u00a0 The glucometer is in a black case.\u00a0 Guess how many times I’ve turned the apartment upside down trying to find the glucometer while Douche has been sitting on it, making the little zippered case one with her long (oily) black fur?\u00a0 Of course when I finally figure out what she’s up to and catch her in the act, she pushes her nose up for some petting and gives me a look that says, I was just keeping it safe and warm for you<\/em>.\u00a0 Douche, Douche, Douchecat: glucometers are not eggs.\u00a0 You do not need to sit on them.<\/p>\n Unfortunately, this time I can’t blame the cat for the missing glucometer.\u00a0\u00a0 It’s just disappeared into the chaos of my panic.\u00a0 Fortunately, we’ve got at least 5 spare prickers (lancets) in the house, and Mike is always happy to share his test strips with me.\u00a0 I’m taking a deep breath right now.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":8,"featured_media":53098,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_relevanssi_hide_post":"","_relevanssi_hide_content":"","_relevanssi_pin_for_all":"","_relevanssi_pin_keywords":"","_relevanssi_unpin_keywords":"","_relevanssi_related_keywords":"","_relevanssi_related_include_ids":"","_relevanssi_related_exclude_ids":"","_relevanssi_related_no_append":"","_relevanssi_related_not_related":"","_relevanssi_related_posts":"","_relevanssi_noindex_reason":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1501],"tags":[418],"yoast_head":"\n