Yesterday I took Tom and Guy, my two older sons, to their judo practice. Usually when I take them I sit outside and work or read during the practice, but yesterday was special. Once a year Michael, the instructor, has the parents participate in the practice. Since most of the parents do not have any judo training, it’s mostly games and running around the mat, but we also learned a few judo moves and practiced them with the kids. It was a lot of fun and I think the kids enjoyed it, too.
There was one thing that I did not enjoy during the practice. I noticed that twice during practice Guy ran over to the side to drink some water. The practice is only 45 minutes long and the kids are not supposed to take drinking breaks during that time. Most people probably wouldn’t think twice about it, but I couldn’t help but think “is it diabetes?”. I tried to calm myself thinking that maybe he hadn’t had enough to drink after soccer practice (which is an hour before his judo practice). But I couldn’t shake it, and for the rest of the day I kept an eye on his drinking and eating (and urinating). There actually wasn’t anything out of the usual, but that feeling you get when you think something may be wrong with your child is very hard to get over.
To make things worse, after calming myself I told Jessica about the drinking incident, and her reaction was “don’t tell me that. He was begging for chocolate this morning…”.
I know the drinking was probably caused by normal post soccer thirst and the sudden chocolate craving was triggered by the fact that we had left a bag with some Hanukkah chocolate coins on the kitchen counter – a temptation too great for any normal 7-year-old boy.
I’m sure most parents with type 1 diabetes have these moments. Jessica and I try as hard as we can to keep our worries to ourselves (and to the few people who read our blogs) and not to let our sons be aware of them, lest we drive them crazy.
We know that the boys worry about us, mostly about me, since they’ve witnessed some scary lows. And they also wonder if the fact that both of their parents have diabetes means that they will too.