I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes seventeen years ago. That’s the amount of time it takes to raise a child. With all the TLC I’ve provided, Diabetes should be ready for college. Let’s hope he goes out-of-state.
Meanwhile, two months ago, I gave birth to an actual child. Her name is Maya.
When I brought her home, Diabetes was jealous. Holding her, feeding her, and changing those poopie Diapers made diabetes wonder where he fit in.
I admit: I’ve been neglecting Diabetes. If you asked me if I had a favorite child, the answer would be Absolutely. Maya takes the cake.
Ironically, when I was pregnant with Maya, I gave Diabetes extra attention. I tested my blood sugar 15 times a day, kept my A1Cs in the 5s, and ate right. I did this so that Maya would be healthy. But now that she’s here and her health doesn’t so much depend on mine, I’m struggling to keep up with Diabetes.
For so many years, Diabetes has been a top priority, maybe even to a fault. I can’t even remember the days when I woke up in the morning and didn’t instinctually reach for my meter. But now things have changed. Maya’s arrival instantly unraveled my deep-rooted routine with Diabetes. Checking my blood sugar is no longer the first thing I do. First I check on Maya. Then I proceed to feed her because babies wake up hungry. A few minutes into breastfeeding, I finally get around to testing my blood sugar.
I know, I know. Testing first is the smarter choice – for me and for Maya. Because what if I were low or high? It’s important to correct so that I’m in good shape to be a good mom. But in the moment, it’s hard to put Diabetes before Maya.
I’ve been repeatedly mumbling to my husband, “Once things settle down, I’ll get back to my old routine.”
If you’re a parent, you’re probably chuckling. That’s okay. I understand now too; there is no settling down! I can’t hang on to the memory of my old routine. There’s a new face in town (a really cute one); that means a new routine. The challenge is finding it. I know it requires multi-tasking. But I’ve always been good at doing one thing at a time.
For now, I’m trying not to beat myself up. Taking care of diabetes and a newborn all at once is hard work! I hope to eventually strike a balance: one where diabetes gets the attention he needs, and Maya remains my #1.