This morning I realized I hadn’t made any New Year’s resolutions for 2013. I don’t know why, but it kind of just caught me by surprise.
Well, it’s not too late, I thought to myself It’s still New Year’s and its not as if they don’t happen if made a day later. They don’t usually happen because I forget about them.
So I started thinking about what I should resolve to do this year. Naturally, my first thoughts were about my diabetes New Year’s resolutions. What am I going to shoot for this year? What should I try to improve? I thought about it for a few minutes. The first resolution should be a better A1c. I should resolve to get my A1c down to 6% or even 6.4%. But then I realized that that’s what I’ve been trying to do for the last few years and it seems ridiculous to resolve to do something that you’ve been trying to do, unsuccessfully, for the last two years.
I also thought of making a New Year’s resolution regarding my weight, but realized that I’ve already been trying to lose a few pounds, the same few pounds for a long time. So, another ridiculous resolution.
I kept thinking, trying to come up with a good diabetes New Year’s resolution. I mean there has to be something I can improve (not just should improve) in my diabetes management.
And then I realized what my diabetes New Year’s resolution was going to be. I’m going to keep on fighting. Not give up. Not let the lack of good past results (i.e. improved A1c), or the endlessness of this process break me. I’m just going to keep on trying, keep on doing my best and maybe, just maybe, I’ll actually see an improvement.